I'm not afraid people are already better than me, families better, earn more
Afraid of classmates and friends who started same or worse, who steadily ground ten years in the industry and became domain elites.
While I drifted with the wind, picked sesame dropped watermelon. Afraid of being the rabbit in tortoise and hare—talent and chance not seized, comfort missing the golden age.
My classmates' best-doing class was my last cohort. University major switch to a small college, Electronic Science and Technology.
Classmates who founded successful hardware products in college
Classmates who got into top grad/PhD programs
Classmates who love philosophy
Classmates who steadily joined top industry companies
They found self-worth early
I took many years
Even doing what I like
often anxious
afraid laziness leaves me with nothing in the field
wasting youth and mission talent
