The truth is
I still can't fully agree that money is just a thing outside the self
I still feel that after so many years of hard study
I ought to make a lot of money
to honor the hardship and the twists
and the family's hopes
Now it feels a bit like retiring at the peak
Choosing to step back while still high
Talking about money not mattering before I've actually made a lot
I envy Da Bing's attitude toward earning
Enough is enough; if it's gone, go earn again
He could make big money
but chooses to hold the inner line against temptation
Willpower off the charts
I already know money won't make me happier
and still worry about the opportunity cost
as if not chasing money is a betrayal of the current situation
Anxious about things that may not even be mine
And if I do get the timely satisfaction
it will just be paid for in another form
